God Does Not Make Mistakes


“God created man in his image; in the divine image he created him; male and female he created them.” Genesis 1:27

I just watched a short video clip on Facebook revealing the harmful side effects and consequences of these so called “transgender treatments” to children and adolescents. How very sad that parents would expose their children and teens to this mockery of what they seem to think is ‘good’ for their children.

I will try to make my point as brief as possible. God has never in the past nor does He today, nor will He in the future make any mistake whatsoever. God creates boys and they are boys. God creates girls and they are girls. Period. End of discussion. There is nothing to debate on. Biology is biology. It cannot be changed ever.

If someone can say that they identify with the opposite sex of what they are and therefore they are the opposite sex and not what their reproductive organs say they are, then may I ask you what will be next? Our society keeps getting further and further away from God and His truth. Truth is not relative my brothers and sisters. There is only one truth and that is God’s truth. How many people live on this earth? There cannot be billions of truths. There has to be a moral compass that teaches right from wrong, good from evil, and that moral compass is God and His teachings, His laws and that includes the Natural law. We need to understand that from the beginning He created them male and female and he gave them the command to be fruitful and multiply. (Genesis 1:28) Men and women complement one another in a most magnificent and beautiful way. Our bodies speak the language of love and God made it so. He does not make mistakes my friends. If truth were relative and anybody can believe and act how he or she wishes and in so doing they are not doing anything wrong than Adolph Hitler would have been in the clear, right? Critics may say that I am using an extreme case but I think it illustrates the point. Hitler believed that Jewish people were less than human and should be eradicated from the earth. Hitler was friends with Margaret Sanger, the founder of Planned Parenthood. Sanger believed that African Americans should be eradicated from the earth and so she set up her abortion mills in low income areas near African American women who were poor. Because of Hitler, six million Jewish people were murdered and because of Sanger we have in our midst today the evil organization of Planned Parenthood who never seeks to help women but to only gain a profit. I would recommend you read Abby Johnson’s book, Unplanned to discover the ugly truth of Planned Parenthood.  But if you are the ones out there who believe that anything goes as long as you believe it is right for you then you cannot draw the line anywhere including on Hitler or Margaret Sanger.

As our modern society strays further and further from God, more and more unnatural ways of living are going to occur. Homosexual ”marriage”, transgenderism, abortion, genetic engineering, reproduction outside the natural act of marriage, euthanasia which is just a fancy word for killing the weak, sick and unwanted of our world. It is still murder even if you choose it for yourself. Since when did Thou shalt not kill, the 5th commandment, not apply to ourselves? My point is this. When will it end? Why do our children have to suffer the confusion of growing up in a world that does not teach them the Truth at all costs? Why do our children have to grow up in a world that lets them go about life walking aimlessly with no direction? Why do our children have to grow up without being taught that there is a God who loves them so much that He came to earth to die for them and to rise again so that they can be with Him forever in Heaven? And that He would have done it even if they were the only person on earth?  If only more parents would care enough to open their own hearts to God and to His love, then just maybe they would teach their children the same.

So, my prayer is the same as it has been for so long. I pray that all people would open their hearts to God, to His infinite love for them and that they would know the unsurpassed joy of loving Him.  I pray that all people would come to realize that God’s laws are not meant to constrict us or make us robots that do whatever He says but that His laws and teachings are for our good, for our benefit. God gave us His laws, His commandments to free us from the burden of sin and corruption. His laws are only meant to help us to be truly happy in this life and to lead us to the next. His laws are there to help us make the best decisions we can make for ourselves and for our children. As Matthew Kelly always says, “to be the best versions of ourselves.” My prayer is that children will be able to live in a world that allows them to be who they are and that my brothers and sisters is who God created them to be. It is fact, it is biology and it cannot be changed because someone has a feeling. Feelings come and go but God’s ways never change not even for our 21st century!!

To God I give all the glory!

God’s Will, Not Mine


“For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother, and sister, and mother.” Matthew 12:50

My family and I recently made a very difficult decision. It has come with months of prayerful discernment and yes, many, many tears. I have found in my life that the most difficult decisions that I have made and the most painful ones are the ones that I have made correctly according to God’s Holy will. In my tears, I realize that God has spoken to my heart. He has given me the answer to the question,”What would You have me do, Lord?” You see we are not here on this earth to do own will or the will of our family or friends, we are here to follow the Lord’s will without cost. A very good friend of mine and devout Catholic once told me while I was agonizing over a decision I had to make that I was not here to please anyone but God alone. He is a very wise man. If only everyone could always live up to that, we would all be a lot better off.

Christ came to Earth to be born of Mary, to suffer and die and rise again all for love of us. He died willingly on the cross for love of the Father and love of us. He gave his life willingly as a sacrifice; it was not taken from Him by any means. But he suffered in the Garden of Gethsemane first. His was the most painful agony ever or ever to be experienced. He asked the Father three times to take this cup away from Him, but he told the Father, not my will but Yours be done.

Life is hard. It is not supposed to be easy. Following God’s will is often not easy. It can be most painful at times. The early Christian martyrs and even the martyrs of today who die for the Faith did not take the easy way out. They gave their lives to follow God’s will even to the point of spilling their blood for Him. There is no greater love than to give one’s life for one’s friends and for the Truth.

When my family and I say the rosary each night, we offer a specific intention with each decade and the one I like to pray for most often with the third sorrowful mystery: The Crowning of Thorns, is for the strength to always have moral courage no matter what the cost even unto my life Lord. If Jesus Himself could withstand the excruciating pain of His passion and follow the Father’s will even to death on the Cross, then who am I not to continually seek out and listen to the voice of the Lord in my heart?

It is difficult in today’s world to really listen to God if you don’t consciously try to find some quiet time with Him alone. Do you wake up early in the morning and just get right into your day? Or do you pick up your rosary and spend 2o minutes alone with Mary contemplating the face of Christ? Do you hurry about all you have to get done during the day or do you look at the crucifix or a picture of Jesus and thank the Lord for all He has done for you and your family each time you walk by? Do you go to work from morning to night and talk with your co-workers at meetings and spend time with them on your lunch break and not even think of God during the day? What about while you are driving to work, do you listen to the radio and the news or do turn it off and just listen to God and talk to Him who made you? You see there are countless opportunities to pray all the day and night long. But if we do not make the concerted effort to listen for the voice of God in the silence of our hearts and minds then how will we ever know what He wants for our lives?

In all my readings of the lives of the Saints, the one common thread that I have found in all of them is this, they all wanted to seek out, to know and follow the Lord’s will in their lives. This was their goal each day of their lives. This is what we are all called to in this life. We are called to discern and to follow God’s will for us no matter how hard His will might be. Saint Teresa of Avila once said, “For prayer is nothing else than being on terms of friendship with God.” So I ask you if we do not pray how will we know what our friend Jesus wants from us. I have always told my children from the time they were very young that Jesus should always be their best friend. If we can make the time to listen to what our friends on earth want us to do with and for them, than why can’t we make the time to spend time with our God to discern what He wants from us and how He wants us to spend our lives?

Most high, glorious God, bring light to the darkness of my heart. Give me right faith, firm hope, and perfect charity, With wisdom and insight, O Lord, that I might always discern Your holy and true will.

Saint Francis of Assisi, Prayer before the Cross

Saint Teresa of Avila, pray for us.



Resisting Happiness


I recently read Matthew Kelly’s book Resisting Happiness (published by Dynamic Catholic) and I loved it. I got so much out of it and I highly recommend you read it yourself. This was the third book of his that I read and he is just such a wonderful writer and speaker (I had the privilege of hearing him speak in person many years ago). He is so very down to earth and he talks to the ordinary person while explaining things in such an easy way to understand. In this book, he shared some very personal stories from his life while trying to get across his point. The theme of the book is that we are resisting happiness and by doing that we are resisting God and God’s will for us in our lives. He says we could be so much happier if we would just listen to the voice of God more and follow His wonderful plan for our lives. He says there are four important questions we need to consider, “Who am I? Why am I here? What matters most? What matters least?”

“Who am I?”

I am a wife who loves her husband from the depths of her being. A wife who still gets excited when I hear the door opening at the end of the day when he comes home from work. A wife who loves her husband more and more with each passing day.

I am a mother. A mother of five beautiful children who are my five greatest treasures on this earth. I can’t imagine my life without each one of them. They bring me so much joy even in life’s hardest moments. From the first time I found out I was pregnant with my oldest and the most recent time with my youngest my heart was so filled with joy and happiness and I loved them the moment I knew they existed in my womb. A mother who has sacrificed career, money, time doing the things that I love to do. A mother who went through five rough pregnancies physically and emotionally and endured five labors including one emergency c-section. A mother who would do it all again in a heartbeat all for love of them.

I am a teacher. This is my eleventh school year homeschooling my children and oh what joy it brings. It is as challenging as ever and it is indeed my vocation. I love teaching my children at home. To be able to teach them to read and write, to add and subtract, to read and teach them history and do science experiments and to discuss politics and current events with them is so incredible.  However, the most important reason I home school is to pass on the Catholic Faith. I want my children to be grounded in their faith so that when they go out on their own as adults they will be able to recognize right and wrong, good and evil. I want them to be able to make good decisions in their lives when I am not there to guide them. Homeschooling is such a gift, such an incredible blessing to my family. I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.

I am a daughter who is so extremely grateful to her mother who raised her in the Catholic Faith. I do not know where I would be right now if I had not been taken to weekly Sunday Mass growing up. It was such an important part of my life and what an incredible example my mother was of faithful Mass attendance.

I am a sister who loves her sister and two brothers very much. How grateful I am that my parents gave me three beautiful gifts to grow with, live with, and share my life with.

I am a friend who continues to strive to be the best that I can be. I pray I treat my friends like family and my family like friends.

I am a disciple and follower of  Jesus Christ. I strive to be a faithful Catholic Christian who lives her life according to the teachings of Christ and His Holy Catholic Church.

Why am I here?

I am here to give glory to God and God alone. While I am here I need to learn to know God as well as I can. I need to serve Him in my brothers and sisters all over the world including my own family. I need to love Him with my whole being. I am here to do God’s will in my life. That means I need to listen to Him in my heart to discern what He is calling me to do. As Matthew Kelly always says, “You need to be the best version of yourself.” That self is the one that God is calling me to be. God’s will for me in this life is the only will that matters. What I want is not important if it is not in accordance with the will of God. That is why I need to be in constant prayer and discernment as to what God wants from me in my life.

My vocation is to be a wife and a mother. I am here to be the best wife and mother that I can be, with God’s grace of course. Being the best wife and mother that I can be is not an easy task and I constantly struggle and make mistakes every day. It involves sacrifice, oh so much sacrifice. I am called to sacrifice my needs, my desires, my goals for the sake of my husband and my children. I am here to put them before myself. God gives the grace if only we open our hearts to receive it.

I am here to worship and adore God. I am here to give him the praise that He is due. I am here because He loves me so much that He made me out of nothing. I am here and I owe Him everything even my own life. I am here to put God before all else.

I am here because I am on a journey to Heaven. My eight year old daughter told me recently that she imagines Heaven as a “big, golden castle.” How wonderful that she is thinking about Heaven! It gives me and I am sure Jesus so much more joy to know that she is thinking of Heaven. Yes, I am here to find my way to Heaven. I am not staying here on this earth forever; I am in exile.  I would never want to live here forever. I am looking forward to Heaven. I find myself thinking more and more of the afterlife. I most importantly imagine what it will be like to see Jesus for the first time face to face, the beatific vision! That is why I am here so that I can go to Heaven some day and meet my Lord in Paradise.

What matters most?

God matters most. When I put God first in my life, then every other relationship is at its best and is as it should be. God must always come first. Jesus Christ gave His life for me and I in turn must be willing to give my life for Him. Loving my neighbor matters most because in loving and serving my neighbor I am loving and serving my God. As Jesus tells us, “Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brethren, you did it to me.” (Matthew 25:40) Standing up for the unborn, the aged, the handicapped, the elderly, the sick, the homeless, the immigrant, the despised and forgotten, the poorest of the poor–this is what matters most. For me, it all comes down to one very important fact. If I put God first and make Him the most important part of my life then everything else falls into place. Going to Mass each Sunday and each Holy Day matters most. God gave us seven days in a week and He called Sunday to be Holy. We owe it to Him to go to Church no matter where we are, on vacation or not. He deserves our worship of Him and we are better off if we go. As Jesus said, “The sabbath was made for man, not man for the sabbath.” (Mark 2:27) What matters most is how we nurture, shape and love unconditionally the children he has given to us. Jesus said, “Let the children come to me, do not hinder them; for to such belongs the Kingdom of God.” (Mark 10:14)  We need to give our children the tools to find their way to Heaven, we need to teach them to believe in the One who loved them and knew them even before we knew they existed!

What matters least?

Let’s see if I can narrow it down. I am not known for being brief but I will try my best. If I had to say what matters least to me I would say that temporal or fleeting things are what matter the least. Money, possessions, career status, how big of a house one has or how much land one owns. The things that matter the least are the things that you can’t take with you when you die. We all come into this world naked and we will all leave this world naked. No one escapes death and no one escapes facing God at the end of their life. God isn’t going to ask us how much money we made or if we got that big promotion at work, how many books we read, how smart we are, or how many extra-curricular activities our children were involved in? God is going to ask us How much we loved? He wants our hearts not our pocketbooks. In brief, what matters least are earthly, material things. Remember, Jesus said,“Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust consume and where thieves break in and steal, but lay treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.” (Matthew 6:19-21)

I hope to write more answers to the questions and reflections that Matthew Kelly gave us all to think about in his book Resisting Happiness. Until then, I hope you all will read the book yourselves and allow God to work on your soul the way He did on mine while I was reading it.

To God I give all the Glory!!!

My Day with the Lord in Poustinia, Homeschooling and more


“I have said this to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”  John 16:33

Two days ago I spent ten hours at the Madonna House, a house of prayer and listening. I had been thinking and praying about going there for many years now, ever since I first visited the Madonna House and learned about what it is to make a ‘Poustinia’ which they offer there. Poustinia is a Russian word that means desert. As I read in the papers they gave me so I could learn more when I first arrived, “it is a time to meet Christ in joyful solitude.” This is what I had been needing for so long. A time away from the world, from my ever busy daily life to just be with Jesus alone. I needed time to cry (which I did), to read the Bible, to just think and listen to the Lord in prayer and to be able to pour my heart and soul out to Him.

It has been a rough year and a half. I had a rough pregnancy in which I had to be on intravenous fluids for seven weeks in my home due to dehydration. The nausea and vomiting were just too much this time around. My sciatica once again reared its painful head for a few months in the latter part of my pregnancy which caused a great deal of pain and frustration and made it difficult to move certain ways or get around easily. My son had to be born by emergency c-section because his heart rate kept dropping with my contractions and the doctor was afraid his heart would not tolerate a couple of hours of pushing, which is what it would have taken to get him out naturally because he was too high up. Not to mention the fact that during this scary time the doctor put a  heart rate monitor on his scalp to better monitor him and we still could not find his heart rate at one point. I never was so scared in all my life- I thought the baby was dead. I kept looking from my doctor to my husband back and forth while my heart raced with fear. Turns out the nurse had just plugged the cord into the wrong connection. I finally asked my doctor what we were going to do and told him how scared I was getting. He thought a few seconds more and told me firmly but compassionately that we were going to do a c-section. After seventeen hours of labor, I was extremely exhausted, I had been trying to push and I had hardly anything left in me. I was both relieved and frightened. It happened so fast. The nurses and doctors got me and my husband ready. The doctor had the baby out within a couple of minutes once we got to the OR. As I laid on the OR table with my arms both out to the sides in cruciform position I immediately thought of our Lord on the cross suffering and dying for us. I prayed for my baby to be okay, for me to be okay. I offered up my sufferings as a good Catholic should do. I offered up my sufferings for all the special people in my life and all their needs. So much suffering in this world is wasted because people do not offer it up and unite it with our Lord’s on the cross to help others. I was determined to offer mine up for so many who are suffering far worse than I ever will or far worse than I could ever imagine.

You see, during the whole pregnancy I had a horrible gut motherly feeling, the kind only a mother knows, that something scary or bad was going to happen. I never told anyone not even my husband until the end of the pregnancy. And so it happened-I had to have the c-section that my doctor knew that I NEVER wanted. I had to have it to save my child’s life. I praised God so much after that for the gift of modern medicine and for the gift of advancement in surgical procedures. I thought a lot about all those women and babies who always used to die so many years ago because they needed a c-section but could not have one. I praised God for the gift of my doctor who knew the right thing to do and when to do it. It was a rough, very painful recovery. I could not even carry my baby for a few weeks afterwards because of the pain. Oh, such burning pain in my abdomen. I never knew that it would be so horrible. I offered it all up. What a gift, to be able to suffer and to be more closely united with our Lord! How much better to suffer when you know it is not in vain but that it can help another soul in this world or in purgatory. I cried for about 6 weeks after the baby was born not just because of my physical recovery but because I was just full of emotions, sad, happy, grateful, worried, lonely,scared and a whole host of other things. I was an emotional wreck. But slowly and gradually the Lord gave me healing and I picked myself up again.

As a homeschooling mom, life can not just slow down when you have a baby. I could not let my older children get behind in their school work so a few weeks later we started ‘hitting the books’.  Homeschooling is a way of life for us. This is our 11th school year and it is filled with so many challenges and joys all at the same time. I would not change it for anything in the world.

When the baby was three months old we had a very traumatizing event occur in our home which really threw my family and I for a loop. I know we still have some healing to do from it. We have come a far way but still have a ways to go, but God in His mercy is giving us the tools we need to succeed and find peace about what happened. So, you see these past eight months of taking care of a new baby who is very active, homeschooling an 11th, 7th, 2nd, and very anxious-to-learn pre-schooler plus dealing with a traumatic incident in our home has taken a toll on me. I have been stressed, anxious, and fearful about many things. I have not been myself.

I went to Madonna House to make a poustinia in order to sort it all out in my head and my heart. I was there to work it out with the Lord. I was there to find my inner peace that I had until it was trampled upon by those I love and hold dear and yes, whom I forgive from the bottom of my heart. A line was crossed with my children and it has affected them and me greatly. It is such a difficult situation so I continue to try every day to put it in the Lord’s hands and ask Him to make all things well. I continue to try to trust Him completely, to surrender all of my fears and concerns to Him who can do all things. I know I haven’t blogged lately-it’s been almost four months mostly because I don’t have time to even think some days but mostly because I have been very distracted lately.

Life with five children sure seems a lot busier than with four. It’s hard taking care of your infant son while your 3 year old needs help or wants you to play or hold just her. It’s hard teaching your seven year old to count money while your baby needs you. It’s hard writing out lesson plans for the week for your high-schooler and middle-schooler  while your younger two daughters want you to play with or read to them. It’s hard to stay awake at night to give time and attention to your husband when you are so tired from the day but it’s the only uninterrupted time there is in the day. It’s hard helping your older two children with their school work when you feel like you are being pulled in five different directions. It’s hard to find quiet time at home to just listen to the Lord when you have five incredible children who need you and whom He has so graciously bestowed on you. It’s hard but by the grace of God He gets me through each and every single day.

Do I ever think about how much easier it would be if my older children went to school? Do I ever think about how much more cleaning, how much more alone time I would get? Yes, I think about it! But the Lord in His mercy called me to homeschooling many years ago. It is indeed a calling. Just as some women are called to be nuns or sisters, teachers, doctors, lawyers or missionaries, I and my husband were called by the Lord to homeschool our children. We are convicted by the Holy Spirit and we know that it is from the Lord. It is not something we do on a whim. It is the Lord’s will. I would have put them in school years ago if it had been MY idea. It was and continues to be the Lord’s will for our family. Homeschooling is not easy. It can be very difficult and challenging at times but life is not supposed to be easy. Jesus told us we would have trials and tribulations and that it would be difficult. He told us to take up our cross daily and follow Him. I wouldn’t trade homeschooling for anything in the world. I love being with my children. I enjoy their company. I love teaching them and seeing them through the ups and downs of life.

I know that I have been all over the place in this blog but I think I really needed to vent, to share, to unburden my thoughts and my soul, to think aloud and to just get it all down. Journaling, as a form of prayer, can be very productive. God took me to the Madonna House into Poustinia to think, to pray, to vent to the Lord, to read and pray with the Scriptures, to heal, to fast, to just be alone with Him in silence and in solitude. He took me there to open my heart up to His plan for the next chapter in my life. It was a wonderful, incredible experience. I felt like I was on a date with my Beloved Lord and I am so grateful He called me to go. What an awesome experience and I do feel so renewed and strengthened in spirit because of the time I spent with Him there. I plan to go again and I can’t wait.

I thank you Lord for everything especially for my FIVE greatest treasures on this earth that you so perfectly knit in my womb. I am humbled that you would think that I your “little” daughter could raise them up for You– A Great and Mighty King.”

To God I Give All The Glory!!! Amen and Alleluia!!

The Holy Name of God


“Blessed be the name of the Lord both now and forever. From the rising of the sun to its setting let the name of the Lord be praised.”  Psalm 113:2-3

The Second Commandment of God is “You shall not take the name of the Lord Your God in vain.” (Exodus 20:7) What exactly does this mean? Quite simply put, it means we must never use the name of God or of His Only Son, Jesus Christ without reverence or respect. It means we should only use God’s name when we are praying to Him, talking about Him to others respectfully or reverently, teaching others about Him, but we should never use His name in surprise or anger.

It has become so commonplace these days in our society to use the Lord’s name in vain. People use it in everyday language as if it means nothing to them. God revealed His name to us so that we could have a personal relationship with Him. He revealed His name to us in order that we could trust in Him and have access to Him in a very, very intimate way. Why is it then that there are so many people who use His name without reverence or respect? It upsets my husband and I a great deal when we hear it being done. In the midst of an ordinary conversation about any number of things, someone will say “O My… ” Well, let me ask you, why can’t the person say, “O my Gosh,” or, “O my Word,” or, “O my Goodness?” God’s name is not to be used in a haphazard way or without thinking. It must hurt Him greatly when people do this. Every time I hear the Lord’s name used in vain, I say a silent prayer of Adoration such as, “Blessed be the Holy Name of God” or, “Blessed be the name of Jesus Christ now and forever.” It really unnerves me that some people actually use the Holy Name of Jesus Christ to curse, to swear or to utter surprise or dismay in talking to others about everyday affairs. It upsets me even more when these same people at the same time do not acknowledge God’s sovereignty over them. They refuse to believe in Him or worship Him at all. How can they at the same time use His name so shamefully when they do not even believe He exists? Also, those who do believe in Him use His name in vain but live their lives most indifferently as if He did not. They do not go to regularly worship Him on Sundays, they do not bother to thank Him for His blessings, even at meal time. They act as if they have no need to say “thank you.” If it upsets me to hear His name used without reverence or respect then I cannot even imagine what it does to the heart and mind of our Lord. Yes, I too am a great sinner, indeed so desperately in need of the limitless mercy of our Lord. I commit sins every day of my life and I regularly go to celebrate the Sacrament of Reconciliation to tell Him how very sorry I am.

Most parents, when their children were born, took special care to give a name to their child. I know that my five children’s names have very special meaning to my husband and I. We named them all after Holy saints of God and they have such deep meaning to us and reflect our deeply held Catholic faith. It would be appalling to me to hear my child’s name used in an irreverent and disrespectful manner. We who are so weak and filled with sin and flaws, we do not use our own names in this same way or at least we know we should not. How come is it that so many people use the name of our God and Savior in such rude, vulgar and reckless ways?

The Catechism of the Catholic Church specifically states (2143) “Among all the words of Revelation, there is one which is unique: the revealed name of God. God confides his name to those who believe in him; he reveals himself to them in his personal mystery. The gift of a name belongs to the order of trust and intimacy. “The Lord’s name is holy.” For this reason man must not abuse it. He must keep it in mind in silent, loving adoration. He will not introduce it into his own speech except to bless, praise, and glorify it.”

I remember a certain priest who visited our parish several years ago. His love of our Lord was so beautiful and he was so very charismatic. His homily was incredible and he told us that we should always and everywhere practice the presence of Christ. This means that always and everywhere we need to realize and remember that Jesus is with us no matter where we are and no matter what we are doing. He is God and He is omnipresent. If we keep this in our hearts and minds that the Lord is ever before us, then I would hope that those of us who use the name of the Lord in irreverent and disrespectful ways would stop. Think about it my brothers and sisters, if you could see with your eyes Jesus Christ standing in front of you, would you use the name of God in haphazard ways? Would you treat God’s name irreverently in surprise or anger? I hope and pray that none of us would.

I propose we start anew. If everyone reading this blog makes a renewed effort on their part to never use the Lord’s name in vain, it could be the start of something glorious and beautiful. We need to set a good example for those who do not know the ways or truth of God. As we should begin all new things in prayer, I say we begin now:

Dear Lord,

We praise you now and forever. We praise and glorify your Holy Name. We ask that you help us to only utter your Blessed Name when we are praying to you or speaking about You with reverence and respect. Let us remember that You are the Almighty, the Creator of Heaven and Earth and that without You we are nothing. Let us always remember to call upon the name of your Son, Jesus Christ, with tenderness, respect, love, adoration and deep gratitude for everything He has done for us, especially for dying on the Cross to save us from all of our sins and to open the gates of Heaven to us. Please retrain our hearts and minds to only use Your name in ways that glorify and honor You. Amen and Alleluia!!

“Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth, and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.”   Philippians 2:9-11



Jesus, I trust in You


Life is full of uncertainty. I am more and more aware of this with every passing year. Life seems to go faster as I get older and the years just fly by. Yes, our life on this earth is so very short and our eternity is forever. As a mother of five now, I am more convinced than ever of God’s Providential care for my children, my husband and myself. God’s goodness and mercy are unfathomable. His Divine Mercy is incomprehensible.

I do have a special devotion to the Divine Mercy, and I pray the chaplet as often as I can. It is a devotion that Jesus revealed and instructed Saint Maria Faustina Kowalska in during the 1930s. I continue to read her Diary of Divine Mercy on a daily basis with my family. It is beautiful and awe-inspiring. The main message that Jesus wanted to convey to Saint Faustina was that mankind can always turn to God at any point in their lives and ask for His mercy and forgiveness. He wants to forgive and be merciful towards us more than we want it ourselves. All we have to do is ask for it. Jesus also wants us to trust Him completely. He tells St. Faustina in these words and in many others:

“I have opened My Heart as a living fountain of mercy. Let all souls draw life from it. Let them approach this sea of mercy with trust.” (Diary of Divine Mercy – 1520)

“The graces of My mercy are drawn by means of one vessel only, and that is—trust. The more a soul trusts, the more it will receive.” (1578)

“Sooner would heaven and earth turn into nothingness than would my mercy not embrace a trusting soul.” (1777)

One of my biggest challenges in life has been to trust the Lord completely and totally with everything. This past Lent took on special meaning for me when I made it my Lenten penance to try to trust Him more completely with my life and the lives of all my loved ones. It has become my continual daily prayer. It is my new desire, my new goal to trust the Lord with all things. In the many visions St. Faustina had of our Lord, He told her how much it saddens Him that we, his children, do not trust in His goodness and mercy. I know in my life what this means. It means that I need to let go and Let God be God of every aspect of my life. It means that I am not in control even though I want to be. It means entrusting Him with my children, my husband, my family, my dreams, my everything. I know that I sometimes am naïve to think that if I can just make things go my way that everything will work out the way I want it to, but that is just not the case. It means that when I say the “Our Father”, the Lord’s prayer, that most perfect of prayers and I say ‘Thy will be done’ that I need to really mean it. It means that no matter what evil happens I have to trust that God will bring good out of it and that through each and every challenge, trial, suffering in this life and especially in my life that His will shall be accomplished in His time and in His way. It means that when I have prayed a million times for the same thing whether it be for a family member, a friend or myself or for the world that if what I pray for does not happen or does not come to pass that I have to trust that God knows better than I will ever know and that He will answer my prayer according to His plan. It means that I may never know in this life why He allows certain things to happen the way they do but that I have to trust no matter how hard it is that He has everything in the palm of His hand. Scripture tells us that He has every one of the hairs on our heads counted. Scripture also tells us how much God cares for the lilies of the field. If God cares for the flowers, how much more does He care for us, His beloved children? Oh, how weak we are as human beings and how little we comprehend the power and might of God Almighty who made Heaven and Earth. If God can create the world from nothing, then who are we to not trust Him with our very lives and the lives of our loved ones.

God is so patient with me, so unbelievably patient! You would think after all of these years I would have mastered trusting in Him. How many times He protected me when I fell asleep driving home from work as a night shift nurse and he woke me up so that I was not hurt or worse. How he kept me alive when I was in a horrific one car accident in a blizzard on my way to work because as a nurse calling out is not acceptable even when there is bad weather. How he granted me a major conversion in college and drew me close to Him and His Holy Catholic Church. How he got me through five rough pregnancies and kept my babies and me safe through each and every delivery. How he has provided for my family all of these years. I could go on and on but the point is this; it is time for me to just, as a very good friend has told me for over half my life now, to “just make the command decision” to trust in God completely and to let Him be God and let me be His daughter that He will always protect and take care of no matter what life brings my way.

Saint Maria Faustina Kowalska, pray for me and for all God’s children to trust in Jesus as much as you did when you walked this earth!


My God, I Love You


O God, I love you above all things because You are all Good and all worthy of all love. I love my neighbor as myself for the love of You, I forgive all who have injured me and I ask pardon of all whom I have injured. Amen (An Act of Love)

I love you for humbling yourself to be born of a woman in a lowly stable in all poverty to teach me humility and poverty of spirit.

I love you for being willing to be a refugee and having to flee to another country with Mary and Saint Joseph to teach me that I must do whatever God wills me to do.

I love you for being willing to obey your parents and live under their authority for 30 years, even though you were God, to give me an example of obedience to all of my rightful superiors.

I love you for being willing to wander Israel and have no where to rest your head in order that you could teach and love and heal.

I love you for being willing to be the friend of sinners and show me that I must be as well.

I love you for forgiving your murderers when your were nailed to the cross.

I love you for choosing 12 Apostles to entrust the Catholic Faith to for my sanctification and salvation.

I love you for instituting the Holy Eucharist so that my soul could be nourished by your most precious Body and Blood.

I love you for instituting the Holy Priesthood in order that the sacraments could be present on earth to fill my soul  with grace, Your Divine Life.

I love you for giving me your Holy, Blessed Mother to be my own to guide me ever closer to you.

I love you for giving us the Holy Mass which is indeed Heaven on Earth to give me strength for all my days.

I love you for being willing to suffer so much, more than anyone who has ever lived, to give me eternal life with you in Heaven.

I love you for giving the world the Sacred Scriptures in order for all of your children to better know and love you.

I love you for getting up three times on the Way of the Cross all for love of me.

I love you for appearing to Saint Margaret Mary Alocoque and giving us the Devotion to Your most Sacred Heart.

I love you for appearing to, teaching and instructing Saint Faustina in your Divine Mercy so that we would all know of your unfathomable Divine Mercy.

I love you for giving me the gift of the True Faith–I know what a gift I have been given. May I never take it for granted.

I love you for the gift of yourself.

I love you for always being faithful even when I am not.

I love you for the gift of Sunday so that I may give you the True Worship you are due and deserve.

I love you for the gift of the Sacrament of Reconciliation to cleanse my soul from sin in the way that is most pleasing to you.

I love you for allowing your Beloved Mother to give us the gift of The Holy Rosary-the most powerful prayer on earth-a way to contemplate your face along with the heart of your Mother.

I love you for inspiring so many of your friends on earth to become saints so that I would have many role models to talk to in Heaven.

I love you for the gift of free will–may I strive to use it wisely.

I love you for giving me the gift of suffering in my life in order to draw me closer to you and to help others as well.

I love you for calling me to homeschooling in order that I may more fully teach my children the Catholic Faith.

I love you for being my closest confidante and knowing me even better than I know myself.

I love you for sending me the gift of the Holy Spirit at my Confirmation to make me your soldier on this journey of salvation.

I love you for forgiving me every single time I have offended you and I know there have been multitudes of times.

I love you my God. You are so very Good ALL the time. Not just when things are going well but ALL the time. My mind cannot fathom how much you love me to have done all you have done for me before I was even born and during my entire life. My mind is so finite and yours so Infinite. How you care and love each and every one of your children as if they were the only one. You love even those who do not even know or Love you. You love those who refuse to acknowledge your sovereignty over them. How I know how much that must hurt your Sacred Heart. How I pray each day for all people of all nations to come to the knowledge of your boundless love for them. How sad and lonely and confusing their lives must be because they do not have the joy of loving you or knowing how much they are infinitely loved by You. Oh, what I would give for everyone in the world to know, love and serve you. My life is so full of joy because of my belief and faith in You. Even though I have struggles, trials, disappointments, pain–I still have JOY!! My joy comes from you my Lord. No matter what is going on, I know that you are with me through it all. I know that you are in control even though I sometimes act and think with sinful pride that I am in control.

With all the school shootings, earthquakes, abortions, murders of every kind, terrorism so rampant in our world today and tragic accidents, etc.. that happen each day I know that even with all of that pain and sorrow, You are there through it all. You are the one who brings life out of death, You are the one who brings laughter out of mourning, the one who comforts those left behind, who gives hope to the hopeless and strength to the weary. You are the one who brings light when it seems that the world is only filled with darkness and the news is so filled with sorrow and despair. You are the one who can lift up when the world is only pulling us all down. Without You my life would be meaningless.

Oh, how I so often wonder how those without any faith at all get up in the morning. How do they live their lives? What do they think their purpose on earth is? It boggles my mind why some people think it is a good idea to not teach their children about God, about His Infinite Love for them. How they are a beloved child of yours, of a Heavenly King? How can they think that is a good idea? Children need to know WHY they are here. They need to know that before they decide on GOD, that GOD has decided on them! It is so sad when a child does not even know who YOU are my Lord. They come from you and they should know about you and how very much You love them. Even my youngest daughter lights up in the face when she tells me with the biggest smile on her face, that “Jesus loves me.” How beautiful it is when she does that and when I can teach her how to say, “I love you Jesus!” What joy I have had teaching my children their faith all these years. What a gift that has been. It started when they were babies–yes, even as newborns and especially at their Baptism as infants–when they were given the grace to believe. It is a life-long endeavor and one I do not take lightly. It is one no parent should take lightly.

Parents, I ask you to teach your children the Faith! Do not wait for them to be surrounded by our secularized world which teaches that God does not exist. That they can live as they please and that anything goes and that TRUTH IS RELATIVE. What a bunch of nonsense! God made the 10 Commandments for everyone. We are not at liberty to choose which ones we obey or do not obey. Adolf Hitler was wrong to kill 6 million Jewish people and millions of others that he decided were not to his liking. Abortion and Euthanasia are wrong. Thou shall not kill, the 5th Commandment, is not up for discussion.  Truth is not a matter of personal opinion. God’s truth prevails even if you do not believe in Him or agree with Him. God exists even if you do not believe in Him. We are mere creatures, my brothers and sisters. God is the Almighty Creator. He makes the rules-not us. He sets the standards of living-not individual consciences. We need to form our consciences correctly based on God’s truths, not our own.

But the most important thing that our children must be taught is HOW much God loves them and how important it is that they should have a close and personal relationship with Him. They need to be taught how to talk to Him from their hearts as they talk to people on this earth. This is most important. It is what will see them through this bumpy road of life. It is the most incredible thing in the world to know Him, to love Him, and to serve Him in this world so that they will be happy with Him forever in Heaven for all eternity!! Someone so very very close to me has told me many times that if it were not for the fact that he was introduced to God and His Holy Church as a young adult that he would either be drunk, in prison or dead. My friends, people need to have a purpose in life, they need to know why they are here otherwise they go through life aimlessly searching for something, anything that will never ever truly make them happy or give them real joy. We all have the ability to believe in and love God. It is placed on our souls and hearts by God himself when we are conceived in the womb, but we must be given the tools to unlock it. I thank God every day for giving me to a mother who saw to it that I was taught to believe in and love God.

Yes, I may have gone off topic but the Spirit takes me where He wills. Forgive me if I have jumped around but the fingers kept going and so I just continued to pour out my faith and my love for the Lord. It is in sharing our faith with others that they may be drawn to God as well and to His Holy Catholic Church. As our Holy Father, Pope Francis often says and I paraphrase, “We are all called to evangelize our families, friends, and the world.” He says the best way to evangelize is to live our lives in JOY. We must have JOY in Jesus. We must find joy in the Gospel and share it with everyone as our state in life allows. We must share our faith by living our lives and sharing our faith with others. We need to be a living example of God’s love in the world for those who do not know him. We need to be God’s face, God’s presence in the world to all those who have strayed or as of yet do not know Him.  I pray I am doing that as the Lord wills me to and I strive each day to do a better job than the day before. Lastly, parents I ask you–When was the last time you told your children, no matter what their age, how much God loves them! I encourage you to do that today!

Saints Margaret Mary Alocoque, Faustina and Pope Francis, pray for us and all people everywhere to realize how much God loves them and the whole entire world.

To you my God–I GIVE ALL THE GLORY!!!